it's been awhile! take the long lack of posts as a good thing, though. i was busy doing bad for a little while, and then wonderful for the rest.

well. i did end up failing that chem class, haha.

thankfully, my previous grades were good enough to save me once again, but it's the last time i'll be able to pull that sort of thing. i'm re-taking chemistry, and i switched teachers, this one's a lot better than the last, and i'm pretty darn confident of myself.

i was worried that because of my failed chems, and that one anatomy incident, that i wouldn't be able to get into any nursing colleges, but i recently went down the list of the colleges within an hour's drive of san francisco and fresno, and it turns out i'll have a choice of 12 to choose from! apperently, at the strictest colleges, you can fail one biology course, and chemistry doesn't count as biology, obviously. so i just need to pass all my upcoming classes, since they also take a percentage of passes/fails and gpa hooey and whatnot etc. it's pretty ridiculously complicated, but from the jist of it i should just do good.

i spent winter break over at bunnyfetishist's, and it was very possibly (almost incredibly positively) my best break ever. i'm just thankful that my granny likes ani so much, otherwise she would never have let me go.

she trusts me, but in islamic culture the gals stay home, so it's just a testament to how much she trusts me, and anika. cause, you all know how crazy i am, yeah? going out at almost midnight for crack-filled crepes, taking the bart to see ani's roomie's old chinese momma, trekking to save mart to buy the old adorable landlord gingerbread mix, and staying up till 2am cleaning like mad? whoo. crazy. the best time i've had so far <3

and i learned how to play mah-jong!

speaking of crazy. my granny is wanting me to get married. not now, of course, but she's found this nice, well-to-do arabic guy and she wants me to get engaged, and then marry him once i'm through with my nursing classes. she's being pretty modern about it all, as she usually is, letting me decide whether i want to or not and everything, but even if i do meet him, i still know what my answer will be.

though, for the first time, i felt guilt for my orientation. she sounded so excited, and looked a little taken aback that i wasn't responding in a more excited manner when she was telling me about the guy. i was straight-faced, trying not to cry. it was hard not to when she went on about how she's getting old, and my secured future with a good man was all she needed to be happy. but, unfortunately, i'm going to have to dissapoint her on that, and i just hope i can make it up to her in every other way.

my lack of enthusiasm might have made her change her mind, since i was supposed to meet him this week, but i haven't heard anything more about getting my hair chemically straightened since last week. ah, poor granny. she's such a good one, too, boasting about my photographical skills to the gossipy arabic ladies. bahah.

anyways, ensui_fan is moving over to the great country of california on tuesday! hopefully she and ani will be able to make the trip down here for spring break, it all really depends on whether she'll be working over break, but either way i plan to go up to san fran for my summer break. i've known cat way too long to never have seen her RL D: it is unacceptable.

i'll try and make myself useful, over summer the gals'll be looking for a new apartment so they can all move in together, and it'll be nice to spend some time in sf again before my short-term summer human physiology class of doom. augh. it's what i get for failing chem last fall.

long post is long! that's what i get for being lazy over break. but everytime i tried to write something, anika and her roomie would shove food in my trap! D:

writing is dandy, so i'll try and be more regular about it. to all you creepy stalkers out there who are reading this.

deleted all my old posts, i thought it was time for a change.

also. today i went on an adventure, a pretty big, random, adventure.

i won't really disclose much more about it, but i will say that it's been quite healing, and i can now say that i am one less in the irrational(ish) fears/hates department.

i'm officially adding 'go on more random, unplanned adventures' on my to-do list for the future, right next to 'lose weight' and 'pass chemistry'.

ah, let's see. besides that, all i must say is:

kind reader, whomever you may be. whatever language, whatever beliefs you hold. pray for this poor soul, that i may pass my chemistry class. please. just, pray for me.

that's all for now!